I find it quite powerful and very poignant too. Sadly, recently I have felt the effects words in my life in a very negative way.
I guess today I am wanting to talk about how gossip and complaining can be harmful to people aswell as yourself.
There is a sad reality that if people complain to you about things they will most likey complain about you too. Some people feel the need to complain about everything and if there is nothing to complain about they will look for something. I have encountered this over the past month. I am being blamed for a circumstance that someone does not understand and I have been treated as if I "planned it all along". I've been diliberately left out and excluded and openly rejected in a public environment. I have been talked about maliciously behind my back or right in front of behind closed doors, even inf ront of me with open doors. All of this is happening to me because one person is unhappy and I ahve become the scapegoat for it. I can not control thier actions, and while it hurts and it is unfair and annoying, I can't let the situation control me. I am trying to make sure this other person does not see me upset or hurt by thier actions. I am trying to let it be like water off a ducks back. It is hard, especially when it is so blatant and they are spreading thier dislike of me to other people. But ultimately they are only hurting themselves.
I may be hurt now, but I will get over nad I will move on. It will make me a stronger and hopefully more understadning person, but for the other party in this... They have revealed thier true colours. How can other people trust them if they behave this way? How can they be asked for help if they treat people so harshly? It causes one to wonder why they are this way - Toxic. Over time they will drive people away from them and be left alone with no oe to turn too as all thier "friends" have been hurt or betrayed by them. I really hope it does not get to that stage for this eprson but I can already see it happening. I hope she realizes before it's too late what she is doing.
Another way words have turned my world on it's head recently is when things were said about me to my family that were not completely true. Some were twisted variations, some were completely wrong, some were misinterpreted nad some were never said. The worst thing about this situation is that who I used to be, my previous actions, spoke louder than the things I was trying to say, what really happened. It's a big lesson to me that actiosn do speak louder than words but also that if you decide to change you can. Which is something I decided about a year ago that I was really going to change who I was and who I was going to be. So I have been striving for that an dmaking changes in my life and it hurt initially that all that was not seen or taken into consideration but then I am grateful because I now feel I am closer to someone involved than I have been in a long time. Kind of a blessing wrapped in adversity.
This situation has also taught me that I need to be more clear in what I am saying and how I am saying things and also who I am talking too. It is a shame and a reality that people will always let you down, it is enevitable that you will let people down too, it's all part of learning whilst we are here on Earth. But I have made a concious decision to let go of people who are causing drama and confrontation in my life. It doesn't mean that I hate them or that I will never speak to them again, it just means that I am choosing to surround myself with people who help me feel happy, content and uplifted. People who are supportive and trusting. Untill I have a thicker skin and more strength to let the hurtful things slide I need some space. I need to re-coop my energy and my focus.
I want to be a good person, I want to be a faithful person and someone who is a good example of this church, so I pray that I can find this strength and this understanding soon.
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