On the verge of crying

It's a weird thing, it just became son incredibly apparent to me... I need to do a Temple session. C and I need to do one together and soon.

I feel I've reached that point where I'm ready to go again. I can feel it more than think it. I feel a bit stagnant and wishy-washy untill I think about the temple, it feels right and it feels warm and brighter too. I feel drawn to it. I contemplated just getting in the car and driving to Sydney just to be at the grounds.
Right now I feel a bit defeated at home, a bit misunderstood, underappreciated and bitter. I am having a difficult time at work and it just seems my entire life, home, work, church, family, everything is in transition period. Nothing is stable. It's unnerving, it makes me feel a little scared and out of control. I feel as though one wrong word will just make me cry like a blubbering mess. Not those pretty cries like little kids, a big ugly adult cry.

Hence why I need the Temple to show me how everything makes sense again.